Shannon @ 3:51:00 AM
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
why do I do this?
Ya know, I wonder why I seem to insist on facilitating my own misery and unhappiness. I just made myself cry for over a half hour for... No reason, really. I mean, I had a reason, but it was my fault for dredging up things that would have been better left covered. I always do that. I'm doing fine for days and then alllllll of a sudden I have to just go do something to fuck it up.
I really just want to be someone's everything... I want to look in someone's eyes and know that I'm the only one that they love, care about, want to hold.
It kills me that I've never had that, even if I thought I did.