Shannon @ 3:20:00 AM
Sunday, February 28, 2010
On the inside I really hate this. On the inside I want to refuse and go kicking and screaming. Part of me wants to yell - I think it might be appropriate.
But I know where he stands and I know what I should/have to/need to do. I've just gotta be there. Just have to be the 'friend' for now. And I guess that's okay, most of the time.
Except when I get the sinking feeling I'll always want more out of it than he does or is willing to give. It's really hard knowing his eyes are not necessarily just for me, especially when I feel like mine aren't wandering all that much.
But maybe that is just my psyche getting the better of me. That happens a lot, so I wouldn't be surprised.
I just wish he was here...